God did not put me through all these for fun. He has His purpose.
it hurts. of cos it does. if i were to say that nothing has happened, that is a lie.
things did happen. but ive learnt to pick myself up and move on.
everytime things happen, get upset for awhile, and then its time to move on.
if i were to look at things from a different light, actually its all not that bad.
the relationship with my dad improved. yes it really did. to think that I dont even say anything to him last time. and im sure things between me and my mom is gonna work out just fine.
she is very different from me. her thinking, her way of life, and finally, her method of loving me. these are all not what im lookin for what I hope to have. but deep inside, I know she loves me just as much. I must learn to tolerate and understand. and yes. i din talk back to her. not like how I would have last time. God has changed me. and I want to follow His words closely. [ commandment 5. honouring your parents]
guess what im really afraid now is that I will end up following God at a distance. like how Peter did. I dont want this to happen. I wont allow this to happen. I never did blame God for all these happening in my life. I relied on Him. I prayed about it. and I know, one day, one fine day, my PO is gonna go away. my mom’s gonna open her heart. and maybe, one day, my whole family will be worshipping God in HOGC. what a beautiful picture isnt it ? and I know. by faith, God will make this happen.
princess of faith. i want to be that princess of faith. someone who believes strongly for something that she hopes for. nothing is being promised. nothing is expected. just believe and trust. take His hands, and be assured of everything ahead.
be above who you are and be alongside with who you can serve. i know we are an army. and im going to continue to fight that fight. even if im wounded. to all those who are fighting PO, pls. never give up. it is tiring. it is hurting. it is painful. but lets be strong soldiers. soldiers who never forsakes the army. soldiers who never let go of our Father.
at the end of the day, i hope i will be able to say
[ I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race,
I have kept the faith. ] 2 Timothy 4:7
I want to continue the fight with everyone in church. esp my team.
yes i want to.
i want to spread the word of Lord our God.
i want to love everyone around me.
i want to live my life for others
They don't always happen when you askAnd its easy to give in to your fearsBut when you're blinded by your painCan't see the way, get through the rainA small but still, resilient voiceSays hope is very near -when you believe.
joyous. loving Him. ;
1/16/2005 08:52:00 PM ++
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